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Assalamualaikum WBT.

Am beginning this post with a big new. I AM AT MY FREAKING HOMEEE!!! (menjerit sepuas hati tanda kebahagiaan. haha)..beriye? of course I am, it's a normal feedback when you have'nt meet your home for a month long. and for sure, I miss everyone here :)

Travelling through 3 states per night was exhausting, but when I got home, I feel nothing at all except happiness, bliss and full thanks to Allah for giving me the strength to be here. Alhamdulillah.

Tak reti rasenye nak describe perasaan bile dah sampai rumah, tengok adik2 tengah tido.rase sangat tak percaye. "rasenye baru malam tadi kat kelantan, sekarang dah sampai rumah dah.." betullah kan orang kate, kalau duduk jauh, baru terase nikmat perasaan dah balik rumah tu macam mane.memang bessss sangattt!!!

The next morning,I went to my beloved school, I could'nt stop smiling. Everything is just the same except I am no longer the student of the school. Setiap kali salam dengan cikgu mesti rase nak nangis, tapi sebab buat2 cool, tahan jela. dalam hati, sebak gile rase (idk, these days, I'm becoming a reallly sensitive person). I MISS EVERYONE INCLUDING PAKCIK MAKCIK TAAWUN! That particular morning, it's my turn to syafawi (ujian lisan).. Ouhh, lupe nak bagitaw, kite balik rumah sebab ade ujian syafawi untuk STAM and settle keje kursus kat sekolah.

Ujian syafawi is compulsary untuk sesiapa yang berhajat nak ambik STAM. Subjek-subjek yang diuji Hifzul Quran, Hadis dengan Mutolaah.. Untuk subjek Quran, kami diwajibkan hafal 3 surah, Ar-Rum, Luqman, dan Sajadah, untuk subjek hadis diwajibkan hafal 10 hadis yang diberi and 3 daripadanya yg akan ditanya. Untuk Mutolaah, kami diberi satu teks arab yang tak berbaris, so kene la baca dengan baris yang betul pastu ada hiwar/munaqashah am (perbualan). Kami diberikan satu tajuk dan kene bagi 5 point pasal tajuk tu.

Untuk subjek Quran dengan Hadis, alhamdulillah, boleh la jawab walaupun ada tersangkut sikit-sikit, adatlah tu, kalau dah nervous. Tapi bile masuk yang Mutolaah esp yang perbualan, *sighed*.Kite dapat tajuk At- Tadkhin wa Idhraruhu alan nas (merokok dan kemudaratannye ke atas manusia). Kite paham tajuk tu, but then I blanked out. I know the points but I dunno their translation dalam arab! the next 3 minutes was full of silent. I keep blaming myself for the lack of vocabs in my head. aku tak pernah rase sebodoh tu. not even waktu kene marah dengan lecturer time algebra.

Para pentaksir sangat baik, try nak tolong. Siap tanye lagi, kanser ape dalam bahasa Arab, darah tinggi, but I reply those questions with silence. Satu penyakit pun tak tahu dalam BA, except pening kepala and demam. (penyakit ke tu?) Bile dah senyap macam tu, pentaksir pun tukar soalan and alhamdulillah, boleh la jawab yang soalan back up tu. but I know I am losing a large percentage of mark.

Keluar je, terus cari Sirin, cite la takleh jawab ape sume, terus nangis. tapi nangis cover2 sebab ustaz ada kat sebelah. huuuu :'( sedih gile and I am so upset with myself.Sirin, Mujahidah dengan Fatimah help me with my folio and I felt so much touched. thanks korang, Allah jela yang boleh balas kebaikan korang!

Waktu gi bilik guru and bagi taw ayah, waktu tu la ayah bagitaw yang kanser tu السرطان dalam Bahasa Arab. InsyaAllah, saya akan ingat sampaiiiiiii bile-bile.I guess failure is the best teacher, is'nt it?

Okay everyone, have a great day, and never let failure fade your spirits off!

Comments

syazwani rodzhan said…
yeah, that's the spirit...keep it up,sofwah...
July 25, 2011 at 7:53 PM
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