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letters for me, from Sofwah!

weird phenomena. really occurred,

tadi time nak bukak blog nak tengok dashboard, dah setting dah, ok, ni nak tulis pasal ni, but then bila bukak2 je terus hilang tanpa khabar berita. okayyy aneh :'(

So yesterday I reread all my posts yg published kat blog chatterbox ni dari last post sampai post yg pertama sekali. honestly and frankly, I'm so proud of myself (bukan riya' tapi bangga) sebab sebenarnya ape yg kita tulis tu represent our emotion and pemikiran semasa kita taip semua tu. rase macam "ouhhh dulu aku macam ni ke? ok jugak. hihi"

Kadang2 kita main tulis je, tak ingat pun ape yg kita tulis tu, tapi bile kita baca balik, perasaan tu bukan seorang Sofwah membaca tulisan dia sendiri yg dia ingat, tapi seorang Sofwah cube memahami perasan dia ketika tu? did you get my point? Hehe

pastu ade la beberapa kali mention nama sendiri ala2 self talk la kan, rase macam tengah terima nasihat dari diri sendiri dan perasaannya adalah beyond cool. terharu, semangat, semua ade. hehe.kan best kalau kite ade diari, tapi itulah, tahap kerajinan yg amat tinggi utk menulis . hihi.

The reason I'm blogging is simply for myself. bukan sebab, "eh, kawan2 aku semua dah ada blog, aku je takde" ataupun nak tayang kat semua orang, "eh, korang. blog aku ramai kot follower, padahal baru bape bulan buat.." tak same sekali. semuanya utk diri sendiri. bila ade certain perkara yg rase lagi proper utk diulis kat blog, instead of FB, then I'll come out with a new post.

dan rasenye somehow I've achieve that objective bila tengok2 semula, waktu kat kuliah, waktu sangat rajin update dulu, waktu tengah down, waktu tengah happy, macam kadang2 tak percaya, aku ke ni yg tulis? it's a good way to actually muhasabah diri sendiri dan tengok perkembangan kita emotionally, sejauh mana kita dah berubah, dan macam2 lagi positive effect pada diri.

tq, chatterbox's blog, for giving me this unexplained satisfactory, and of course, thanks to the readers, who's willing to come over and visit this blog.keep telling me if I've made mistakes, and may Allah show us what's best for us. Thank you again :)


p/s: I'm so glad that I'm back :)

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