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for the second time.

Actually hari jumaat tu eksaited gilaa nak balik sbb homesick kan. Ingatkan it's gonna be a short day sbb kelas ada satu je haritu then naik bas pukul 1.30 then gudbye my bumi tarbiyah yg cool.

But things did't went as I thought it would be.

Sebenarnya saya tertinggal bas, untuk kali keduanya dalam hidup. Haha. Taktau la macam mana, rasanya dah keluar awal lah. Tapi agaknya memang Allah tak izinkan nak naik bas tu.

At first rasa macam lost gila. Macam mana nak balik? Dahla tengah musim orang nak balik memang tiket semua sold out la kan. Tanya semua kaunter kat pekeliling, semua tilet ke kuantan dah habis.

Pernah tak kalau kita rasa sedih sangat sampai rasa dah tak kisah?

Tapi Allah bukakkan jalan. Kebetulan terserempak dngan sorang makcik indian yg sama-sama nak cari tiket kuantan. Dia cakap dia nak cari kat pudu tapi time tu tak rasa nak berentu tanya kaunter kat pekeliling lagi so makcik tu pegi dulu. I thought I'll never see her after that.

hurm so i travel ru pudu utk cuba nasib. Mane tau kalau2 dia ada buat bas tambahan kan. And alhamdulillah the only ticket available pukul 9.30 malam. Time beli tiket tu dalam pukul 2.30 gitu. Puas jugak nak menunggu. Nak balik um pun rasa takut sbb risau kene tinggal lagi

Tak bgtau parents pun tertinggal bas sbb takut kene marah haha.

So nasib baik surau pudu sangat selesa bole la nak lepak utk few hours. Kalau bosan, cari makanan. Jumpe seat kosong, duduk makan. Pastu jalan lagi. Sampai la naik bus

Kebetulan jumpe lagi makcik tu dalam bas and dia duduk sebelah kite dalam bas tu. Hehe

jalan sangat jammed so pukul 1 pagi lebih baru smpai rumah. Hampir2 salah berenti bua stop sbb tak biasa lagi turun kat rumah kuantan. Kalau rumah pekan mmg konfiden je
.lagipun selalunye akan ada kete ayah yg standby kat bus stop tapi haritu ayah smpai lewat sikit

So terpaksa jalan kaki sikit nak ke bus stop. Ayah drive ditemani emak yg separuh mata terpejam sbb mengantuk. Rasa bersalah sebab menyusahkan. Sobs  :(

Alhamdulillah it's such a long long day, yg tak pernah terlintas pun akan berlaku kan?

Kadang kadang kita cuba nak faham apa hikmah yg Allah tentukan utk diri ni. Tapi rupanya kadang kadang kita tak perlu faham pun kenapa bende tu jadi. Kita cuma perlu percaya yg apa yg Allah aturkan utk kita, tu lah yg sebaiknya, walaupun harini kita tak.nampak hikmah dia

tapi pasti ada hikmah di sebalik smua yg terjadi. Saya yakin sekali :)

Doa Nabi SAW:
"Ya Allah, Engkaulah teman dalam perjalanan dan pengganti dalam keluarga"

Semoga Allah sentiasa jagakan kita walau dalam keadaan apa sekalipun. Sebab kekuasaan Allah tu melampaui logik akal :)

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