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One day, my sister said something to me,
"Kalau awak ambik stam, mesti awak dah degree kan"

"takpe. saya suka ape yg saya blaja sekarang.."

Yes. after few days uttering those words, it makes me thinking. whether they came out as a reflection of what i'm feeling inside or just uttering as a form as to relieve myself

and i looked back what i have achieved and the adventures i have been through. I knew I am blessed.

if you asked most of tthe student of the same course with me, i can guarantee that every single of us did feel slightly regret, taking this course. because it's tough and it requires a lot of patience. and it's not even degree level yet but it was this tough!

but I think we all have one thing in common. we realized that we are not here by chance. and there is hikmah beyond all these. too much that we can't simplify them into words. it's felt but almost impossible to describe this kind of feeling.

i can say that i've lived in two dimension of world that totally diverge among each other.

like there are two long and separated paths but i've travelled both.

and the whole experience through it made you understand even more. and the value of understand is a gift from Allah that is priceless.

lets take  a look at life in Nilam Puri.
It was calm. quiet. less drama (haha) you were surrounded by nice people and the lecturers were incomparable. they were the best among all. you can call them anytime, asking questions but they didnt even bothered by it.

but in Pasum, it was totally contradict. hectic. pressure. and drama-overloaded. but honestly it was fun. adventurous and challenging

learning sciences made you think and observe. and i can even feel it running in my blood, that a huge difference was happening inside. i started to understand those little thing. i'm not really sure whether it is the effect of science of the effect of growing or the merge of those two. but i'm enjoying them.

i've met a lot of great people that teach me how to observe. i dont need people to teach me how to think, that's call docrinated.

and when it come to the subject, honestly, it was never crossed in my mind that i'll fell in love in Biology! and Physics, surprisingly was'nt that bad! (physics is the only science subject that i managed to score A last semester. it's the first time in my entire life that i scored A in physics. phew)

it's just great to learn those subjects though its hard and constantly make the world upside down. but hey no matter how tough it is, i managed to get thru them.

if i were to give up all these adventures and tough just for an easy life, i don't think i would. because it is too precious and worthwhile.

the life has its up and down. i learned, happiness doesnt depends on where you are. or the people around you.

happiness is not a fate, it's an option.

and what do you opt for today?

cause i might be broken down today, but tomorrow, like the sun who never get tired of rising everyday with its shine, i will rise with the smile on my face.

how about you? ;)

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taktau ape theme post ni. i just everyone enjoying their life as much as i do :)

Goodluck!








SPECIAL THANKS,TO ALL OF YOU :) JZKK


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