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Starting Over

I want to share with everyone, my precious finding.



I know the book title sounded so cheesy. I'm not even intended buying this book at the first place. I bought it because it is packed together with the men are from mars, women are from venus book as the english version of the book was quite hard to find, plus the price of the book package were cheap.

I'm not intended buying this book because I never thought I'll be using this book ever. I mean, just look at the title.

but things happen beyond our expectation. nobody planned to end up broken, but people change and sometimes we cant cope with the change that build that gap between us. and here's the point where this book come into the play.

As heart is a very subjective and our ability to control the heart was very limited, we tend to act in a way that we thought the best way, as there is no distinct true or false when it comes into a heartily matter. and we tend to make a wrong move because the unstable mental condition affect our ability in making decision rationally.

Kalau kita patah kaki kita pergi ke orthopedists as they are the specialists in such area. Kita tak meletakkan kepercayaan bahawa doktor lah yang menyembuhkan, tapi ini usaha kita. sebab Allah semuanya berlaku dalam turutan sunnatullah, dengan izin Allah.

 Kesedaran untuk mendapat pertolongan dalam bab-bab psikologi ni, entah kenapa agak kurang. maybe sebab semua orang merasakan mereka buat apa yang betul dan perlu. ataupun sebab memang budaya masyarakat kita yang rasa kita tak perlukan bantuan dalam bab-bab masalah hati.

Tapi lepas baca buku ni, I realised how wrong I am, and I've done so many things I shouldnt that only make me going worse, and banyak rupanya cara kita nak bantu diri sendiri untuk sembuh.

Jangan pandang remeh, jangan judge..

saya ada masalah, saya tahu saya sakit dan saya sedang cari solusinya. kita diuji dengan pelbagai perkara yang berbeza antara satu sama lain.

 It's gonna take some time for sure. takpelah i have the whole life getting myself healed up. what's with the rush?

Doakan ye, tolong? :)

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