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13/8

Today.
Today marks the day where i lost it.
My patience is just pushed to the edges and i couldn't take on the bs im facing anymore
I yelled in front of everyone and I didn't regret it.
My jaw is trembling from anger, since the replies and excuses that I received is just beyond something I can comprehend.

But I am grateful that I did.
I learn a thing or two about leadership
From my very own close friend.

She showed me through action that diplomacy is the way to change
She became the bigger person, and instead of fueling my anger, she sat down, discuss one by one why it shouldn't happen.
She apologized but she guides how to rise and stop the cycle of mistakes.

I witnessed it with my very own eyes how it really open people's hearts n feelings

But I also don't necessarily regret being angry
Cos some people ONLY take it seriously when rage is involved.
Some don't understand the weight of their task, and how their mistake is costly.
It needed to happen, and it happens for reason

But why I really learn that it shouldn't stop there
The test is just whether you want to continue the scolding, or actually take their hand and showed them the right way.
We all have different learning curve, and some take on a snail speed compares to others.
And when that happens, the responsibility falls on you. This is your test.

To leave or to lead.

Today, I was shown the way to lead.

Thank you for this guidance you showed me.

I thought I was turning wiser, but clearly I still have a long way to go

And my learning journey has just began :)

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