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Moving On

Yeah I admit lately my posts have been shorter and ntah apa-apa, but maybe I just getting out of words, and maybe that short words explained everything.maybe.

So long have'nt update my blog, and it seems more pathetic by day, bukannya I don't have time to, tapi yela. masalah dalaman tambah beberapa tekanan perasaan semenjak berhenti sekolah.(takleh dasyat lagi ke ayat?).
Well, everybody (esp UITM and Matriks students) keep wishing goodbye on facebook, and it freaks me out! The closer to the date, the more nerveshacking I've become! hmm, ntahla, I should be mentally prepared, that I have to bear in mind that my next phase of life would be tougher,hectic and temptation all over me. I really, really hope that I can make through all this and came out as a successful person. AMIN

In a blink of eye, I am about to set my prints on university. And I'm still like,"OMG,tak sangka dah nak masuk U, dah boleh kawen dah pun,umur 18". okay, ignore that marrying part, because it never crossed in my mind act.haha. but yeah, time passed by like damn fast and I realized this phase is not something that I should just watch it over without making a huge reformation that I will remember for the whole life.

Somehow, I felt like I am a child's spirit trapped inside a 18-years-old-big body (ouhh not THAT big, I mean) but we keep wishing if only the time could be turned around and back to childhood, but we were not supposed to build castle in the air, so, WE HAVE TO MOVE ON.

Okay that was damn serious.stop it, Sofwah. haha

Sekarang ni, tengah takut sebab so far, I baru dengar ada dua orang yang same course with me,but both laki, and both I tak kenal. haha. takut jugak in case of I'm not able to settle up and not able to make new friends there, yela, kita tak taw kan, I'm having some kinda problem called, "cakap/tulis dulu sebelum fikir" so that's how my blog had become a place to trash out my merepek things.

Talking about merepek, tadi I tengah text my friend then dia reply macam ni
"start dah merepek dye, ni yang bosan ni..huhu"
then I started to figure out that not everyone can accept the way I am, so I am very grateful to have cool friends yg semazhab bab merepek ni, yg setia and sudi melayan and withstands for all those nonsense things that  uttered/write, and kawan2 yang hati kebal sangat memahami, and tak pernah nak berasa2 hati with me,so thanks a dammmmnnnn lot, you guys. It really makes me feel like wanna appreciate my friends even more. thanks!

mereka sahabat yg terlalu lampau setia. isk3 :'(
ABQARIANS. each of you were signficant to me
totally spies..how could I ever forget you guys?
 Dan kepada sahabat-sahabat lain yang tak tersebut nama-nama mereka,thanks. I cannot repay your guy's kindness. I owe you my heart. (:

 





Comments

raraahmad said…
ohemjii,im soo touched ;') esp on the merepek thingies,i think all this while i've been the most merepek tak jadi joker,how lame n its a shame! but its all intangibly sweet and im gonna miss every single sec we spent all together,, never stop merepek shud be our tagline because none of us ta reti merepek :D loveyou dear!
May 21, 2011 at 8:52 AM
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