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Year 1

Hi

Hi for the people who never miss visiting this blog whenever i come out with new updates. (iloveyou,you'reawesome)

Hi also for the people who's been reading this blog for the first time. (so, how was the first impression?)

and also hi to the random strangers who did spend their time to stop by and read up to this 3rd sentence which basically contain plain greeting and nothing significant. lol xD

Phew if i can actually plot my graph of life it would be the most fluctuated graph you'll ever see. A lot of thing escalated so damn quick before i even realised it, honestly.When people said Uni life will happen just before your eyes, they really mean it. I mean, the first year passed just like that and now i'm approaching the mid semester of my 2nd year. what?

So my first year in a nutshell
1. nope i didnt get into the dean list. in UM, to make it into dean list require minimum pointer of 3.7. (kalau anda pelajar u anda akan mengerti betapa 0.1 merupakan angka yang sangat signifikan terutama dalam soal pointer).
2. Assistant Secretary of UMalaya Radio. where my heart is.
3. Pemudahcara Mahasiswa Sentral 2014/2015. The kind of no-words-can-describe experience.
4. I get to mingle with so wide range of people which is the most awesome part in my Uni life
5. Single
6. Emotionally testing. please refer to previous posts. haha
7. dan banyak lagi

everyone has different struggle, at different magnitude per person.

this is the one i shared during my GTEE1111 Presentation Skill class.

one of the toughest part of adapting to the other side of the world is to accept the fact that tak semua orang dalam dunia ni baik, dan akan buat perkara yang betul.

i was born in such environment where to do and to be nice is an obligatory. not being nice is crime. i was born and grew up with everyone abiding to this particular principle.
then i leave this bubble of kind people and get to know people of the other side of the world.
with no judgement in my head.
i just honestly enthusiastic in mingling with people and widen my perspective
i met awesome and amazing and great people that i treasure them as my siblings and family
being open up taught me so much thing more than i learnt in lecture hall/secondary school

but then life will always be like on the bumpy roads
among all that people
not everyone was kind
for the first time in my life- i had this experience where people badmouthing me. no sayang, it was never been easy to accept and swallow those words uttered. meanwhile all u tried to do was helping and all you got in return is people--questioning and humiliate you in public.

it was devastating. probably the worst feeling ever.

the question that never stop wandering in my brain--why? what did i do wrong?

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setiap orang ada pergelutan yang berbeza

mine is accepting the fact that tak semua orang dalam dunia ni akan buat perkara yang betul. mungkin ada orang persoalkan, why such a big fuss? the world is full of cruel people after all?
but if you were me, thing will started to make sense.

tak, saya tak berminat nak mengungkit perkara lama.

it's just people will never forget the way you make them feel. pengajaran untuk diri sendiri jugak dalam masa yang sama

Human forgive and never forget, realistically. tapi semua yang berlaku ada hikmah insyaAllah. pahit2 macam mana pun saya bersyukur benda tu pernah berlaku, sebab hidup ni satu proses pembelajaran yg tak pernah terhenti. Alhamdulillah.

So. what was your toughest struggle by far?

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