Living University life allows me to open up and mingle with diversed type of people, having friends transcending races, religion and even nationality, did really opens me up personally to what embracing diversity really means.
Notice when we looked back to our times in school, where even the smallest kind of problem, feels like the end of the world already? Like the world is already definite, and your future basically predicted based on how you behave in school?
If you're hardworking, smarty panty, top in the class, perfect-scorer then you're 'most likely' to graduate with first class from university, landed good career and lead a successful life. You know what they says, your future is pretty much predestined by your SPM results.
Otherwise, if you're not very much a performer academic wise, add in masalah disiplin here and there, then things might seems a bit gloomy and dim for your future. Your career option is pretty much limited since you didn't do pretty well, you're not on the top list on the merit system, who knows where you might get placed?
We have been told about this over and over again, as if the life works in a predictable manner.
I wish, somebody would've told me things doesnt necessarily goes the way we thought they would.
I wish, we would have been told our world is so so small that time, I dont have the need to worry over small, petty stuff. I didnt have to cry my eyes swollen when I dont get good ranks in classes. I don't have to feel my life ended when a lot of people despised me (include teachers too) (well, I was only 17 at that time, we all made mistakes, but I was treated as if my mistakes were irreversible, and I am gonna face problems in the future sbb hilang keberkatan stuffs).
And I looked back today, at the age of 22, how small those worlds seems now.
Like none of that matters anymore today. Little by little, we changed along the journey, shaped by different environment, people and circumstances.
WE CAN'T HELP IT. only people who never leaves their shells stays the same as they were.
But there are also a lot of things that I DON'T REGRET
- I don't regret working hard for my SPM, not because of the result, because it basically taught me to work big if you want to gain big. This is what I believed, concept of tawakal emerged through.
Bila kita dah usaha, sebaik mungkin, sekadar keupayaan kita selaku makhluk, sampai kita rasa, kita tak mampu nak buat lebih baik dari itu.
Waktu tu kita beri yang terbaik, dan kemudian bila dah selesai semua, dengan automatik, perasaan tawakal tu akan datang sendiri tanpa sebarang paksaan. Kita serahkan bulat-bulat pengharapan kita pada Allah.
Waktu tu kita faham, apa pun hasil, insyaAllah kita reda dan ikhlas. takkan ada rasa kekecewaan pun ataupun penyesalan bila kita beri usaha yang terbaik. WORK HARD, IT PAYS OFF.
Of course, it disturbs me a lot when people just works aimlessly and end up giving tawakal excuses to escape from responsibilities, You don't even do the term Tawakal a justice.
and the other things that I NEVER regret is my participation in extracurricular activities back then
They gave me confidence, experiences, and memories that no one can take away from me. I am so so so grateful and thankful for every opportunities I had back then, and I won't have it any other way.
The world might be HUGE AND DEFINITE now, but IT WILL GET SMALLER in the future.
The possibilities are endless, so the best is we acquired ourselves with things that helps us to be a better person day by day. Be it soft skill, friends, grades, knowledge, relationships and anything that really, really matters.
We all have different priorities and goals, so maneuver your life accordingly to your own pace, and speed. You might not be the smartest, prettiest, coolest, but sure you are the one person that is so certain with your goals and aims.
Good luck, have fun, and seize the moment :)
The one who is full of concerns,
Sofwah.
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