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A Decision

Yesterday I was suppose to attend an interview at Maahad T ahfiz Negeri Pahang but apparently I did'nt do it because of some reason which I think rational on me,myself and I dont mind if people's calling me a quitter or chicken-hearted person because I believe in myself and what I behold to. Any decision I made was the hard one even though its a simple decision to make but it did affect my life.

So I wasnt going because the main reason is I wasnt that interested. Even though the offer is quite interesting like we still able to learn those STAM'S subjects at MTNP because there will be like lecturers that will teach us those subject and we dont have to skip that exam(do u know that STAM is actually on a par with diploma and ect?) but I believe it wont be the same like here because we have another commitment and we have lots to think about else than STAM.Its not that I'm down grading maahad tahfiz, NO WAY, because I do respects all those huffaz and their institution a lot, but it seems like I prefer to be here.

Secondly, I dont want to be a person who did what other people did, because there's quite lot people from my school who go to the interview and I dont want to go there because of the feeling of "I dont want to be the one who left behind". I want to go there because it me,myself who really,really want to be there not because of people inviting me out its a trend or what so ever I want it to be my desire because your intention determining your accomplishment,right?

So my advise is,when u wanted to make a decision,do it RATIONALLY and ignore what people going to say about your decision and the most important, LISTEN TO YOUR HEART. And not too forget, leave them to Allah because He'll never leave you alone.

Have a great day everyone! :)

"There's two things u ought to do if u wanna be remembered, DO SOMETHING WORTH WRITE or WRITE SOMETHING WORTH READ"..

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